Hiraeth

There is wrong and then there is right;

I fight it with all my might,

But the perplexity is all too irresolvable:

Cannot be undone even by the most able.

It’s amusing how life brought me here,

Couldn’t ever guess it was taking me there –

Only stillness lies where.

Screech, O’ heart, there is no one to hear.

There was hope and then came the tears,

There was glee and then came the fears,

There was light and then came the dark;

None failed to leave their mark.

Some slashed the veins, some just the skin,

Nonetheless, the sting was akin.

Cherishing it like a treasure,

I’m trying to turn it to pleasure.

My judgment is clouded

And what lies ahead is shrouded.

There is not a path I can take,

Each will cut me deep.

There is nothing to see;

Nothing but nebulous lines.

But I will keep going,

Because that is where my fate lies.

Inflorescence

Four years or maybe eleven,

Like rainbow colors – all seven,

We were never even.

You came in as a foe, then morphed into a companion.

Alas, it was never uncomplicated for us to be in union.

But I fought more than I thought I could.

But you fought less than I knew you would.

All the red-flags I disregarded,

All the warnings I discarded,

They all laugh in my face;

I try to run away, but they chase.

I knew I was going to be left out in the cold.

Or maybe I already was out in the cold?

Perhaps I was addicted to being bold?

The lies that you told,

The heartlessness that you sold –

They were all cloaked with charm

And I wondered, how could you possibly mean any harm?

Why would you possibly mean any harm?

But I knew something was suspicious

Because the smell in the air was devious,

But I wanted to give you more chances

Because you had one of those naive stances.

But now I know and now I see

That a fiend hides behind that face of thee.

But, don’t worry; my dignity is worth to me more;

More than this feeling of vengeance for my wounds so sore,

More than the heat of my boiling blood,

More than my serene mind, now a violent flood.

There is no need for me to bother,

I will stand by as yet another.

You will bring yourself to your knees,

Never again to rise.

For what you did, you’ll pay the price.

The devil will deliver its kiss

And the chance to see it, I would not miss.

Cerebral

Do you remember?

The coldness of your heart

And the ruthlessness of your ways?

The words you spoke

And the looks you gave?

Do you remember?

Your ego climbing the stairs

And venom as smooth as lace?

My crying eyes

And your deceiving face?

Do you remember?

My spilling blood

And your unflinching veins?

Yes, I remember,

Your jovial laughter

And your ambitions as they soar.

The distance between us;

This always left me wanting more.

Yes, I remember,

The wait to hear from you

And how your words used to lure.

The years you spent in my dreams

And the hours I spent in yours.

Yes, I remember,

How I loved you

And needed you.

Yes, I remember.

Everything.